MARCH 24
Sorry that I haven't updated this week, I just didn't get around to it.  Like Dave posted last weekend, sadly, Brett passed away on Saturday.  He was a very sweet little boy and I will never forget him. I will always have the image of him and his little sister in Spiderman costumes walking down the hallway in 5200.  While his passing has caused me much grief I am trying to be at peace with it.  I just feel so bad for his family, and can't understand why God would take such innocent children like Brett and Alyssa.  This whole experience has tested my faith and I have to say sadly, that my faith has really failed me and that I can't help but to be furious with God for what he has done to my son and to those families.

Logan is doing very well.  When we went to the doctor all of his stats were perfect, so he is on track to getting better, which is a huge relief.  We are having one problem with him though, he has a very erratic sleeping schedule.  The beginning of last week he would only sleep for about 5 hours and would wake me up and about four or five in the morning.  Then, as the weekend and my exhaustion progressed we went to Mom and Dad's so that I could get some decent sleep and he started to not sleep entirely through the night, but going to sleep early, getting up for a few hours during the night, and sleeping in late.  We still can't get him to sleep in his crib so he sleeps with me in the bed.  I was so scared that he was going to wake up and try to crawl out of the bed and end up tumbling onto the floor that I had Dave take our bed off of it's frame and put it on the floor, where I have pillows right next to where he sleeps just in case.  We're thinking that if we can't get him in his crib that we might put the full sized bed that we have in his room on the floor and use that as a bed for him, that is, if he will sleep in it.

He took his first head dive last week and that scared the crap out of me.  We had just had our new furniture delivered, which is great by the way, we now have an entire living room that isn't made up of hand me downs thanks to this years tax refund.  So, I put Logan on the couch and backed up to take a picture of him and he got into the crawling position and off the couch he went.  When I rushed over to him his eyes were wide open.  It was kind of funny now that I think about it.  I kind of overreacted though since he landed on his head, and I think that it scared him more than anything.  He cried for a few minutes and then he was all done.  He is getting much braver about venturing around the house and has now been in every room in it.  He'll even go into his room by himself and play with some of the toys that I set out for him, but he still stays mainly in the living room, making a complete mess of it.

I got an e-mail the other day from someone from Duke and they told me that every year during their annual walk they have a quilt that is auctioned off.  The squares on the quilt are decorated by the children who have had transplants and we were asked if we would decorate a square to represent Logan.  I told them that I would be glad to do it and they sent me the materials, I received them yesterday.  We were given an orange square with some fabric markers.  Since I'm not very artistically inclined I've enlisted the help of Aunt Sharon to help me decorate it.  I'm hoping that it will turn out really nice.

That's about all that's going on around here.  Please pray for the Bowden family in their time of grief, and also for Alyssa's family.  Also, please pray for my Uncle Punk who we recently found out has cancer.  Talk to everyone later.

MARCH 14
The little boy that Meg mentioned awhile back, Brett, passed away at 2:30 on Saturday. It sounds like he went peacefully, but keep his family in your prayers. Alyssa's birthday was also celebrated a few days ago by releasing pink balloons into the air. You can see pictures from it on their Web site.

Note: Some general update maintenance was done, and about 15 new picture of Logan has been uploaded to the site.

MARCH 10
Hello everyone.  I hope that everyone is doing fine.  Everything is going really well here.  We had been enjoying the warm weather that we had earlier this last week, but alas, it is gone and the cold is returning.  But, that's Michigan for you so what else can I really expect.  The last couple weeks have been pretty boring since we got back from the trip to North Carolina.  Logan has been doing really well with his counts and only has to go to the doctor's office once a week now.  So that's really nice.  Mom is recovering very nicely from her surgery.  She is definitely doing much better this time around than what she did last time.  She is in bed most of the day and her pills are making her sleepy, but at least she's not in nearly as much pain.

My book is coming along really nicely.  I'm at about 130 pages and I have hit the point where we are right now, so I can't really write any further, so now I'm going back and doing a second draft on what I have already written.

Speaking of Logan, he is really starting to get this crawling thing down and is making leaps and bounds.  Just yesterday he discovered the entry way hallway and the dining room.  Today I tried to get him to come into the kitchen with me, but he will only come so far in, I don't think he knows what to make out of the linolieum.  He has also recently discovered the fireplace which is not a good thing.  Since it is a gas fireplace there is a pilot light that is always on and we're afraid that he is somehow going to be able to get his hand far enough in there to burn himself.  I might just call maitenance and have them turn it off for us, we never use it anyway, and that way we wouldn't have to worry about it, either that or get a gate to go in front of it.  He has also discovered our DVD collection and has commenced throwing them all around him.  He spreads his toys across the entire living room so it looks like a small tornado went through it.  He has also discovered the blinds and finds it very fun to pull on them and swish them around.  I don't think I've said anything before, but he also dances to jingles on the television and to music that I play.  He'll sit there and wiggle his upper half from side to side, it's adorable.  This morning, around 7, he was dancing to an Esurance commercial.

We tried this weekend to get him into his crib, but no dice.  He wakes up when I pick him up to go to bed, so when I bring him into our bed with me he just rolls over and goes to sleep.  However, when I tried to lay him in his crib he wakes right up and starts crying.  So, after trying that a few times I gave in and brought him into bed with me.  To help get to sleep earlier at night the doctor told us to try an herbal tabled called Melatonin which we crush up and put in food for him.  So far, except for last night, when he decided that he wanted to stay up until midnight.  Other than that though, the medicine has been helping to at least get him to sleep.  He is usually asleep within an hour after getting it.  He still wakes up during the night, but I can usually just rock him right back to sleep when that happens.  It's sweet, when he's falling asleep, sometimes he reaches out and touches me, as if to make sure that I'm there.  It always makes me feel special.  I think to myself "I'm his Mommy and he loves me."